Music Quote...  / Tina

"Music...gives wings to the mind, a soul to the universe, flight to the imagination, a charm to sadness, a life to everything."

I Love You Sweetie, as soon as I read this quote I thought of you and how much you loved music and how it was such a big part of your life and emotions.

Loving you always & forever,
Tina

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Happy St. Patrick's Day Gene  / Jane Speidel, Mom Of Adam Waymire (caring friend, son is angel friend )

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Watching Dr. Phil & crying my eyes out Gene...  / Tina
I'm crying my eyes out, so emotional right now, watching Dr. Phil it is about living with bipolar disorder. I think of you, I think of your pain, I think of me and the pain I have. It hurts so much. I felt just like the woman on TV except I don't have kids so I hurt everyone else around me with my outbursts.

I think of you and your pain and all that hurt and I cry thinking about how your not here, and how much this bipolar disorder hurt you. I hate the disease I hate the words bipolar, I hate what it did to you, what it's done to me, I hate that your not here and this bipolar has so much to do with it.

I love you Gene, and miss you so very much. I want you back, I want you here how do I accept your gone? I can't do it, just when I think I can, I go backwards and realize I'm not able to let you go, I'm not at peace knowing your in a better place.

Please help me to find that peace inside Gene, please help guide me thru this process of healing, please help me thru this journey, please help me to rid myself of this anger, please help me to stop the crying, please help me to smile again.

I love you so very much sweetie...Sending you kisses to heaven...I love you, Mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Close

I'm having one of those days again...  / Tina
One of those days Gene, I'm sitting here saying YOU SHOULD BE HERE GENE, WHAT DID YOU DO????? Oh My God, I can't stand this pain...The song daydream believer just came on, "Cheer up sleepy Gene..." lol I said go figure I'm writing how I'm yelling GENEEEEEEEEEee and sure enough a song with the name Gene comes on, lol...My thoughts are emotions are all over today Gene, seriously, I just know it's one of them days everyone needs to stay clear away from me cause I'm in RARE form, I keep sitting here saying YOU SHOULD BE HERE RIGHT NOW. I should be able to SLEEP, I shouldn't be having horrible visions when I close my eyes...I should be at your apartment, sleeping in your bed, in your arms, locked in that leg lock, listening to your heartbeat and you snoring in my ear lol...but I'm not and I never will again...I miss you so0o0o0 much...this heartache needs to heal cause I can't stand this pain anymore. I can't stand crying anymore. I try to function and I can't...this is so terrible...but I still love you... Close

My prayers  / Shirley George (Just Passing By )

I am so sorry for your loss. My daughter lost her only child ( son ) 26 yrs old in 2001. I lost my son 43 yrs old in 2003. I know they are angels now and watching over us always as all our loved ones do. Gene will forever be near you. Altough you can not feel him or touch him..he is there. God promised us all a place in his mansion and our loved ones were called home to live with our Lord. Gene is where there are no tears, pain, sorrow, only joy. It is his real awakening and his true home. It is not his death. We will always have a hole in our hearts for the loved ones we lost but it is not our time yet. Gene passed loving you and will always love you.
            Absent from the body
            Present with the Lord
I would like to send you the memorial my son wrote for his brother. I believe the lord held the pen as he wrote this. It brings me comfort.
                                          IN HIS LOVE
                             Shirley A. George

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Tina........ / Becky-Aunt To Candice Bertram
For  you, Tina and your love. You and Gene are in my heart always,
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I believe clip from lyrics  / Tina

"Walk blindly to the light and reach out for his hand
Don't ask any questions and don't try to understand
Open up your mind and then open up your heart
And you will see that you and me aren't very far apart

'Cause I believe that love is the answer
I believe that love will find the way"

~Clip of I Believe Lyrics from Blessed Union of Souls~

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Quote from William Channing reminded me of you sweetie...  / Tina

To live content with small means; to seek elegance rather than luxury, and refinement rather than fashion....In a word, to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious, grow up through the common. This is to be my symphony.
William Ellery Channing

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Love & Care To Dear Gene XO (((Tina)))  / Jane Einarson~Matthew's Mom (I care/friend )
 Dear Tina, I think about you and precious Gene everyday. You will forever be in my thoughts and heart. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for always taking the time to visit my Matthew. God bless you xoxoxox Close

Happy St. Patrick's Day Gene  / Debbie Wengert (Kevin's Mom )

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I Love You Baby, Love you so very much!!!!!!!  / Tina

A STAR IS BORN
TINA & GENE ON A HOLLYWOOD STAR
:-)

Gene My Love,
I love you so very much and miss you with all my heart. I've completely shut down for almost a month. Did good come out of it I don't know, because now I am full of rage. Full of anger. And I am trying to get control of myself. It seems if I don't have this rage pumping thru me, I have the sadness and can't stop crying. There doesn't seem to be a balance, and it's driving me nuts. I know I have heard there are 9 stages of grief I guess my stage has changed. I am not angry with you, at times I do get upset and somewhat angry but not so much. I just have the rage building inside of me. And I guess a lot of it has to do with my best friend not being here to help me. I can't call you and say Gene, listen...I don't have you to turn to anymore. And since I can't talk and let things out it's bottling up in me. I write in a journal, I write on here, but it's not the same. I need you here. I ask of you to come to my dreams and you have been lately, been dreaming a lot about you, but when I do dream of you, I don't say the things I guess I need to say and get off my chest to you, maybe if I did I would feel better. When I dream it's different, they are either like you never left or they are you coming back for a moment, or it's me grieving for you. That one was scary the other day. Hope I don't have that again. My thoughts are everywhere, I can't focus, I feel like I can't breathe. I feel like I can't get it together without you. And you used to tell me your strong T, your independant T. Yeah? Where's my strength now? You were my strength. I was so lost and in a shell for so many years, you brought me out of my shell and made me smile again. You made me laugh. You made me see life again. You showed me to dream again. You showed me what it's like to have goals, set them and chase them & make them happen. You showed me how to confront my fears. You taught me how to love again and how to accept love. You taught me how not to be a cold hearted bitch (only if necessary, lol) and now that your gone, I am so lost. I laugh everytime I think about how you used to tell me I was your safe haven, and I was your rock. You leaned on me, MY GOD GENE were you that blind or did you really know but just did admit to how much I relied on you??? I wonder that a lot. Did you actually know how much I leaned on you? Sometimes I think no, but other times I think how could you not? I am so numb, so lifeless without you. I wish I could stop crying. I wish I could focus. I just miss you so very much and love you with all my heart.

I went shopping yesterday and bought all new stuff for my house. I am doing my apartment over. Painting, decor, furniture everything. I want a new start a fresh new peaceful home. I want a sense of peace, serenity, a tranquil enviroment. I think maybe setting the mood like this in each room with help me heal.

The bedroom is shades of blues and gray with water & sky decor and TONS of candles. I love the ocean I love the sky and so that's why my bedroom is this decor peaceful blues. My dressers are going to be decorated with your stuff & pics of you etc. I got pics on the wall of you. I am taking 2 of my favorite pics and blowing them up to an 11 x 14 and putting them on the walls.

My living room is all neutral colors, like natural, beiges, browns etc, again TONS of candles, rocks, dried flowers & petals, sand, pictures of peaceful serene scenes. And pics of you all over :-) of course

I know you'd love the apartment the way I am doing it. But I know once everything is done your spirit will be here s0o0o you'll see it :-)

I love you sweetie, I love you so very much. I can't believe it's going to be 5 months in 2 weeks. As time passes and the 12th of every month comes I say it over and over again I can't believe this is real, your not coming back. Your actually in Heaven. This is for real. I can't believe it. How can this be real? Can I reverse this? Oh how I wish I could, how I wish I had the power to turn back time. But all I do is drive myself crazy with that. I need to just accept it, instead of dwelling on I wish I could turn back time, or the what if's. I guess it's just in human nature to do that.

I Love this song I placed on the site for you. Goodbye my Lover, Goodbye my friend...So perfect...I Love this part, I mean I love every part of the song, and I cry all the words make me think of you...But right now at this very moment of me being sad I am thinking about:
"You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you."

I just wanted to say I love you sweetie and I'm missing you like crazy, I'm hurting so very bad, and just can't take this pain of you not being here. I can't take the pain of me not being able to call you, see you, hold you, kiss you, sleep in your arms, look into your eyes, see that smile, hear your laughter, watch you sleep, hear you tell me I Love You T. How I wish I could kiss those tender lips of yours. I'm so sad. :'( I miss you sweet cheeks.

Sweet Dreams in Heaven Honey. I love you very much and please come to my dreams again tonight. I love being able to see you and spend time with you there. And since this is all I can have right now until my time comes to see you in Heaven, I'll take it and I ask you come visit every night :-)

Good night baby. Love Ya, Mwaaaaaaaa
TiNa <333

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GOODBYE MY LOVER, GOODBYE MY FRIEND YOU HAVE BEEN THE ONE...  / TINA DORE (GOODBYE MY LOVER... )
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Happy First Valentine's Day in Heaven My Love...  / TiNa (Soul Mate )

A letter to you my love on Valentine's Day...

I treasure the memories of our nights spent like this in bed, now I can only hope that I dream of them and relive the sweet memory of sleeping in your arms and laying on your chest listening to your heartbeat and kissing your tender lips...





Blue Roses for you sweetie, your favorite color...

This is a reflection of me today & everyday since you left...

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Thinking of you Tina, and of Angel Gene.  / Valerie Haslett (((I Care)) )
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Gene, you and our Josh must be FISHIN in HEAVEN!  / Julie Westly (Friend of Tina/Support Group )
Gene,

We may never know why you left us really, but we will always know how much you loved your family, and how much YOU WERE LOVED by them too.

There is no greater pain than to lose a child, no words exist to explain the heart crushing, mind numbing, stomach turning, throat choking, endless streams of tears shed. Just when you think there are no more tears, you find yourself waking with a wet pillow case.

Look down on us all from heaven, and wrap your arms around your family that miss you so much...and be sure to take our Josh fishing, he was going to get a license and really do it this year...you sound like the perfect buddy for him in heaven!

Julie Westly...Aunt of Josh,
American Hero, Gone Too Soon Because of
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
...Wipe it Out in Our Lifetime!

Visit his site:
http://joshua-omvig.memory-of.com/About.aspx

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FOR My Family . . .  / To MY FAMILY -. From GENE, With ALL My LOVE.

This is a picture of ME!!

Handsome as ever . . .


To my Dearest Family,
There are some things I'd like to say.
But first of all,I want to let you know,
that I arrived okay.

I'm writing this from heaven.
Here I dwell with god above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness;
Here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy
just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you
every morning, noon and night.

That day I had to leave you
when my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me
and said "I welcome you.

It's good to have you back again,
you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family,
They'll be here later on.

There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man".
God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list,
was to watch and care for you.

And when you lie in bed at night
the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you...
in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth,
and all those loving years.
Because you are only human,
they are bound to bring you tears.

But do not be afraid to cry:
it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers,
unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you now,
than I ever was before.

There are many rocky roads ahead of you
and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it
by taking one day at a time.

It was always my philosophy
and I'd like it for you too;
That as you give unto the world,
the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody
who's in sorrow and pain;
Then you can say to God at night....
"My day was not in vain."

And now I am contented...
that my life was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along the way
I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody
who is sad and feeling low;
Just lend a hand to pick him up,
as on your way you go.

When you're walking down the street
and you've got Me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps
only half a step behind.

And when it's time for you to go...
from that body to be free.
Remember you're not going...
you're coming here to me.


I LOVE YOU ALL,

BIGGER THAN THE SKY!!!!!

gene

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And MOM . . .

This KISS is just for YOU!!

From:  your little boy

xoxoxo

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My heart...  / Tina

My Heart

You were the air that I breathed, Now, my breath is gone.
You were the wind beneath my wings,
Now, my sails hang limp Even on the windiest days.
You were my sun in the morning, Now, my days are dark and dreary.
You were the best of my heart,
Now, it lies shattered in a Thousand pieces at my feet.
You were the arms that held me Through the long nights,
Now, I toss and turn and reach for you in my sleep.
Why were you taken from me, My love, my life, my heart?

~Verna Wood, Chickasha, OK
Bereavement Magazine Jan/Feb 2002
www.bereavementmag.com

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Time... / Tina Dore

Too Slow for those who Wait,
Too Swift for those who Fear,
Too Long for those who Grieve,
Too Short for those who Rejoice;
But for those who Love,
Time is Eternity

Henry Van Dyke

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Thinking of You  / Sandy -Kelli Spaniel's Mom

 

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