This site was created in Loving Memory of our Beloved Eugene "Gene" Bungay Jr. who is dearly loved and missed everyday.

Eugene "Gene" Bungay Jr.
His Sunrise: October 18, 1975
 His Sunset: October 12, 2005




This Site is under construction, as I am doing it over, please bare with me as it's an emotion site to create. But will be complete soon. 

Please do take a moment to visit: www.TinaNGene.com

We all miss Gene's sense of humor, his laughter, his amazing beautiful smile, his sincere loving heart, his gentle heart and loving and caring ways.

Gene touched the lives of many. He was such an amazing person and I was truly Blessed to be a part of Gene's life since we were about 9 years old. He was my Best Friend for so many years. Gene was so funny as we were growing up always saying Tee, when are we going to be together. But I would always respond "Gene, I love you like a brother, no, I don't want our friendship to be ruined" Sometimes he would laugh it off, other times, he would get a little upset. 

As we got older, he would tell me why won't you ever give me a shot, you don't think we would make a good couple? You don't think we could make it? I regret not listening to him years earlier. The time I truly regret is when he came home after being away for 3 years, and he came to me as he knew I had gotten engaged, and I'll never forget he said, Tee, you know I got love for "him" (my fiancee) but it's not going to work. I know you, I know you better than you know yourself. My life is different now I swear to you, I'm a changed person, I'm a man now, a spiritual, sober man, all these years God put us together for a reason, and I know it's cause we should be together. Now that your engaged, I'll never be with you, I'll never have a chance because your going to get married. He then said I wish you weren't engaged, I wish you would have waited for me to come home, and let me prove to you how I've changed my life. All these years all I wanted was a chance with you, I love you Tina and I truly mean that. 



I'll never forget that day, my heart was aching, because I did love Gene, I loved him so much, but didn't know if he was being true to his word, and then here I was engaged to another man, whom I am supposed to marry. I always am famous for saying I never regret things, because you always have time to think even if it's for a second you have time to think before you take action, but I will say, I regret not waiting for him like he asked me to, not believing in him, and most of all not being with him. 

Sometimes when I think back to 1999 I think to myself, if I would have waited, believed in him and gave it a shot between us, would it be different, would I have my amazing, loving, funny, sincere, kind-hearted Gene today. And this is a regret I have in my life. Maybe things would have been different, maybe not, we'll never know.

I always knew I loved Gene, meaning I truly loved him but I never told him growing up, I told him I love you all the time, but would say your my BESTEST FRIEND in the WHOLE WORLD and I love you. But I never told him how I truly felt. This is a second regret I now have. Would it had made a difference if I told him all those years ago how much I truly loved him?

I think for many years I didn't know if I was confusing the love I had for him for being "in love" with him, OR just loving him as a close, best friend, like loving him like a brother type of love.

Not until I got older in my twenties, did I realize that I was in love with Gene and always was in love with him. But just never told him. 

I ask myself all the time as most do the What If's come into play, what if I told him how much I loved him years ago, what if I said yes, let's be together, what if I would have waited for him to come home, what if I didn't play hard to get...so many what if's

I am so grateful we finally did get to share a loving relationship like we did, it was a rocky roller coaster, but I don't regret one part of it. I am glad we were able to share love with one another. 

Some believe in a soul connection, some don't...and that's ok...I however do believe in soul to soul connections. Gene did too. He always said for many, many years, Tina there is a reason God always finds a way to bring us back into each others life, do you realize that?

And it's true, it's because Gene was my Soulmate. I have never shared my heart, soul, thoughts, emotions, secrets, feelings, soul to soul connections with another person like I did with him. Words can't express what I am trying to explain. It's to difficult to explain. 

And I know I lost the best thing I ever had in my life. I know I will never share with another person what I shared with him. I will never love anyone the way I loved him. I will never connect like the way I connected with him. And I miss that every since day of my life. It breaks my heart and soul to know, I will never have this again in my life.

YES, life goes on, BUT, what we shared can never be replaced.
Many don't even understand or know what we shared. Because it was something so beautiful and precious between us. 

He was so loving, so humble, so generous, so giving, he was my Teddy Bear...this is why I wrote the poem My Damaged Teddy Bear...

The laughter we shared over the years I could never compare to another person. The memories I am so grateful for. I cherish each and every one of them. These are many of the things I miss so dearly of him.

How he made me laugh...ohhh how he made me laugh, and it's hard to make me laugh, I crack a smile and maybe someone can make me chuckle, but Gene, he made me laugh, good, pure wholesome laughter. The kind that tears come out of your eyes, and your stomach aches so bad from laughing so hard. No one has ever made me laugh like he can make me laugh. I doubt I'll ever find someone who can. 

It some of these thoughts and memories I have of him that many people will think, Tina, you will move on, you will find love again, you will get married, have children, live a good life just like Gene would want you too. I know life does move on, it's so hard without him here, but I know that's what Gene would want for me. To find love and happiness but I just know it will never be anything like what we shared. And I'd give anything to have him back in a heartbeat anything, because I miss making new funny and loving memories with him. 

I will forever cherish what we shared over the years more importantly the last 2 years of his life. I will forever hold onto those memories keep them close to my heart...